Something too Confusing

I don't know what I want?

Nor I know what I have..

I behave in manners I can't explain..

I am not sad, but not even happy I am..

I tried 2 change d way I act..

But everything seems to be the same..

I wish I could do some better..

Because I don't have strength to be the same..

Its jus 2 impossible to behave..

It’s not that I want to make some troubles..

but it can't get out of my way..

I tried hard not 2 give pain..

No matter what I do.. Things always seems so unchanged..

Hurt is not what I want to give..but it just passes my way..

Nothing can I have... Nor can I give..

Its jus the pain I hold and that's what I can’t give ..

Time passes by.. And some things changed..

As now here I am ..

And that to full of nothing..

I don't get..

Y do u hurt yourself.. When u know I can't change..

Y do u suffer the pain, when u know things can’t change..

Y u want to wait, when u know I can't stay..

What's the point hurting yourself..

Thinking of someone who can't be near to hear....